Slacked too much...

Today finally come back to sch to do my proj.. Been skipping sch, not doing proj.. haiz...

im been working hard for the past 2mths, I been trying my best to do everything... Due to I slacked too much in the past, so from the start it's so tough for me... I wanna earn more money, I need to complete my studies, I need ppl who can financially n moral support me..

I shldnt be writing my blog nw, I shld b out for appts.. But I really don noe where to go, I wanna to be back to my old self who able to work happy n cope with my studies at the same time... I cant do it nw, I cant repeat another sem cos I told every1 that im graduating nxt yr Feb/mar.. If they noe because work I need to repeat they will b nagging n scolding me... I don wanna to have that happened!!!

I really need sometime to relax, im really exhausted.. im under too much stress... Mood also up n down, I even flare my attitude to customers even though I noe I shld stay happy n smile at them no matter what but I cant control it anymore..

Few days back, even quarrel with my mum for all these things cos she nagging when im stress up and after shouted back, i packed my stuffs and leaved my house with banging of door behind me...

Anyway no matter what I wont be so easily get Si Xin or bei da bai, I will still hang on to it... You guys say I stubborn or what, I don care!!

I wan my car!! I wan my Hawaii trip!! I wan my JV!!!